The Burlingames

We have a named picked out!!! Oh and we are not telling until he’s born. :-)

I went to the doctor today for my 35 week check-up. He did a cervical exam and informed me that my cervix is still close and quite high. BOOO!!! Although, he did say if I were to go into labor between now and my due date, he wouldn’t stop me. I told him that was a good thing because if he tried to stop me, he might get hurt. He laughed!

Other good news, the baby is still head down and he has a very good heartbeat.

Ugh – we’ll see what next week brings. I’m very ready to be done with this pregnancy and excited to meet my little boy.

Any name suggestions?!?!

Two weeks have past now since Mom died. The reality of her being gone hasn’t fully set in yet. I keep reaching for my phone to call her but all too quickly realize that I can’t call her. I’m not ready for her to be gone, I’m only 27 years old and not ready to not have a mom any more, I still need her. It just doesn’t seem fair. Some day I’ll stop asking the ‘what if’ and ‘why’ questions but right now I can’t seem to get them out of my mind. Why did God have to take my Mom? What if she hadn’t been on that road? What if…why…what if…why…what if…

Today I kept thinking of what Dad said at the funeral, I cried each time too. I’m paraphrasing as best as I remember. “It was raining the night you died. I thought it was to wash away the tears but soon realized it was the Angels rejoicing in your arrival to heaven”.

For a long time, Wednesdays are going to be my worst day. Wednesdays will mark the number of weeks since Mom’s passing.

This is the eulogy that I wrote and read at the funeral. I made it through the entire eulogy before breaking up at the end. Mom was standing next to me helping me get through the entire thing.

Thank you for coming to celebrate Mom’s life with us. She would love seeing all of you here today.

What can I say about Mom? She was an amazing woman. As Pastor Todd said, Mom had her ‘finger prints’ in a lot of different places. She was a woman who wore many, many hats. First and foremost she was a child of God. Mom loved Jesus. She loved praying for people. She also LOVED worship music, especially loud worship music – she was a mover and a groover.

Mom was a wonderful wife who loved Dad with all her heart. 18 days ago, they celebrated their 32^nd wedding anniversary.

Mom was a loving Mom. She always said she gave Brianna and I wings to fly and roots to come home to – which we did often. I like to tell Brianna that I’m the favorite and she’s adopted.

Mom was a Gramma. She loved Eli and “Gilbert” so very much. She was always praying for a miraculous healing for Eli. I’m willing to bet she has already discussed this matter with God!

Mom was passionate. She loved her family and friends with gusto. When she loved, she loved!

Mom was a teacher, in fact, she was more than that; she was a life changer. She encouraged her students and pushed them to succeed.

Mom was a cheerleader. Whether it was for Brianna and her Special Olympics crew, me and my friends, or other people – she was cheering from the sidelines with lots of passion and love.

Like I said, Mom wore many hats. She was a wife, mom, daughter, sister, aunt, cousin, teacher and a friend. She was passionate, encouraging, supportive, caring, stubborn and so much more.

I’m sure Mom already has her favorite spot in God’s vast gardens picked out and is sipping a cup of coffee while watching the birds flutter around.

Mom, you will forever be missed and always be loved. You were taken from us too soon, but I know God has great plans for you. Love you Mom!!

Thank you!